Confessions & Promises

I actually haven't been able to keep up with my exercise routines or my diet plans. So far I've been doing nothing but adding more extra pounds instead. All of this is my fault and I've finally come to accept that fact. I mean I was in denial and I kept telling myself that I'm not gaining anything when in fact I am. It's tough for someone like me who really loves food to stop eating. I inhale my food rather than chewing it. I'm like a vacuum that will suck the food out of the plates and still beg/ninja-steal some more.
Today i noticed that there are stretch marks on my shoulders and I'm completely shocked that I grew that much. I haven't check my wait but I'm pretty sure it's already like 205-207 lbs. That's back to where I started. I can't continue on like this. I knew that there are a lot of dangers of being obese and my mom just told me that there are a lot of patients (she's a nurse) mostly young people who have had strokes due to being highly overweight. I think that now is the time for me to actually do something about this. I know that i told myself something like this a really long time ago but I think this will be the first time i will really commit myself to this goal because not only will it help me but make me feel better about myself. For once I have a real reason as to why I want to lose weight. It's not to fit in into our current beauty-based society but to live a healthier life so I can finally live my life to the fullest without having a lot of restrictions. I also want to lose weight because I made a promise with my cousin whom I haven't seen for about 7-8 years before we left home from a family vacation that before I turn 18 i would have lost the weight so the next time we meet I am healthy and look better. I will do my best to successfully fulfill this promise. I will win this battle against weight loss and update it whenever I have time on this blog.